50. ...And We Stare At The Sun, But We Never See Anything There
(Epistemic status: I hope for your sake that this whole post is near-incomprehensible to you. Nonetheless it'll make more sense if you've read "33. Your Heart Will Go On" and "37. Seven-ish Emotions From My Culture".) (With thanks to Mutemath.) There's a very specific emotion that you personally may not be able to feel. If you can, you'll know it after I've described it, and I feel for you. It's one of those things where (e.g.) you ask if anyone's ever been so hungry they were nauseous, and you get answers of either "yeah, I hate it when that happens" else "no, what the heck?!"s and horrified stares. It goes like this, that nameless feeling: you think about something you love, or something you want very badly. Your mind's eye can't stop staring at it, unblinkingly. It's so beautiful, so real, so alive to you, but so far away. You're tearing up? Oh, no, you're tearing up, and something hurts deep in ...